These past weeks have been an interesting battle. By battle I mean a constant struggle with my inner thoughts. Everyday for the past few weeks I cannot shut my brain off! It has affected me in the worst possibly way I could ever fathom. I am honestly to the point of calling it quits and checking myself into a mental hospital.
Have you ever felt so overwhelmed and unsatisfied with your life you no longer know how to survive? Well folks, I have and it’s a living nightmare.
All i want to do is be successful, yet I am truly afraid of achieving my goals. I have literally gone insane overthinking about what the fuck I want to do with my life. One minute I want to become a computer programmer to an Occupational therapist, and now an addiction/mental health therapist. What in the hell is wrong with me!?
Why is this so difficult? I am 29 and I’m running out of time. The sad part is I want to make money and become this renowned successful being yet am to afraid to leave my own house.
I have no idea where to start. Do I spend four years getting my bachelors degree followed by a masters? Ya, right, then I will be 35/36 with thousands in debt.
I have not been sleeping due to my obsessive reoccurring thoughts.
To top it all off I’m in a new town, have no friends and can barely afford rent. I feel completely helpless and alone.